To Blog Or Not To Blog
July 3, 2014
As far back as I can remember, I always wanted to keep a personal journal. The thought of taking a bunch of empty pages and transforming them into some sort of best friend that waits up with you every night to reminisce over the day's events, a friend that is always willing to listen, a friend that will stand by you through the good times and the bad; who wouldn't want that?
But much to my dismay, I could never quite make that friendship work. And believe me, I tried. From spiral-bound to leather-bound, blank paper to lined paper, I tried it all. I even experimented with a graph paper pad during my more nerdy middle school years. But all to no avail. After a couple of forced entries, each journal was soon abandoned and relegated to the abyss of my childhood closet, never to be seen again.
Now you might be tempted to jump to the conclusion that I wasn't a good writer, or rather that I just didn't enjoy writing. But that certainly wasn't the case. When it came to writing essays for school or short stories for personal pleasure, I never had a problem. In fact, I almost always enjoyed writing. Except for when it came to those damn journals...Instant writer's block.
So here I am now, about to start my first attempt at blogging, and this is all I can think about. It seems doomed from the get-go. Why even start? But behind all this doubt, there is a faint glimmer of hope that will at least carry me through this initial entry. And that glimmer is you, the reader. Actually, it's not so much you, but rather the thought of you; The idea that these words might reach some audience beyond myself, thereby giving my writing a purpose that was always lacking in my childhood journals. Even if no one actually ends up reading this, it doesn't take away from the very real powers of the placebo effect. As long as I can trick myself into thinking that there is someone at the other end of that computer, I'll hopefully be able to write. So if you have already stopped reading this post, then do me a favor and make sure you don't let me know. Thanks.
Anyways, there is so much that I want to dive right in to, but I'll leave it as motivation for myself to write a second blog post someday. Plus, I'm afraid that if I keep rambling on I will bore you all to the extent that you won't return to this site, at which point it will become nothing more than another failed personal journal. So for now, I bid you all adieu.